I’m excited to share that The Stoneslide Corrective has published my short story Ruination in their Aftermath issue. I’m proud to be included alongside other authors and essayists for this project. I hope you’ll take a moment to read my sci-fi short.

You can do so for free, though Stoneslide asks for a $1.99 contribution for a day pass to read more than one piece.

And you should because $1.99 is nothing, and the other works on the site are amazing, stark, honest, confessional, exciting, and beautiful. It’s a great way to start off the year.

Here’s a link:


My book, There You Feel Free, has been out for nearly two years now. That’s a long time and an especially long time in the book world. For that reason, among others, I feel so grateful and fortunate that the Spring Creek Sun, a Brooklyn, New York newspaper decided to review my book. You can get a taste of the review in the image above, and if you’re interested, you can read it in its entirety here:

I think one of the most difficult aspects of trying to be an author is spreading the word and finding new readers. This review is evidence that they come along, sometimes after you’ve thought they might not. In short, keep writing and keep promoting. Stay passionate and gracious. It pays off.

Much love to you all,



As It Ought to Be have published another of my book reviews. This time I read and recommended Jordan A. Rothacker’s And Wind Will Wash Away, recently published by Deeds.

You can check out the complete review at AIOTB.


I dabbled in script/screenplay writing for this BONED entry. It’s a playful take on the Dos Equis commercials that can’t have escaped your notice. Hope you enjoy this whimsical little gag. – n.





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A gray bearded man, dressed in a fitted suit sits in the booth seat of a two-top drinking a beer in a green bottle speaks directly to the camera


Oh, I don’t normally drink beer… [beat] But enough about me. Tell me about you.



Blue, really? What shade of blue would you say is your favorite?



And you say that you work as chick sexor? What IS that like?



Stephanie? What’s the origin of that name? Will you spell it?

HARD CUT – Camera pulls back to show a woman sitting across him at the table


[Looking at a text on her phone] Oh, gosh, that was the babysitter. I really have to go.

STEPHANIE gets up hurriedly and leaves, walking past the camera that still frames THE MOST INTERESTED MAN


[calling to Stephanie who is already gone] Babies? What are their names and ages!?



That meal looks delicious. What are the ingredients in that dish?



He’s a better listener than Gene Hackman in THE CONVERSATION

When his grandchildren want to talk to him at family functions he turns his hearing aid up.



A gray bearded man, dressed in a fitted suit sits in the booth seat of a two-top drinking a beer in a green bottle speaks directly to the camera


A fourth floor walk up? How did you get your furniture in there?






Ramps like they used to construct the ancient pyramids?



A burly team of men with a truck? How much did you pay?

HARD CUT – Camera pulls back to show a Man in a bear suit sitting across him at the table.


Roars loudly and angrily… non-language

MAN IN BEAR SUIT flips the table and stomps off past the camera, claws flailing – shot still frames THE MOST INTERESTED MAN


[calling to MAN IN BEAR SUIT who is already gone] What language is that? Dutch?



Are you reading a newspaper? Do you read the newspaper every day?



He loves hearing about your day more than your own mother.

When people quote movies at parties he asks them to act out their favorite scenes.



A gray bearded man, dressed in a fitted suit sits in the booth seat of a two-top drinking a beer in a green bottle speaks directly to the camera


Did you purchase that beautiful shirt from a department store? Macys? Sears? JC Penneys? Boscovs? Dillards?



A shrimp allergy? Would you say you swell to this big [motions with hands]? This Big? THIS BIG?



Oh, your mother sounds lovely. What is her favorite flower? Chrysanthemums?

HARD CUT – Camera pulls back to show a HEALTH CLASS SKELETON wearing a hawaiian shirt sitting across him at the table. THE RESTAURANT IS COBWEBBED AND CLEARLY ABANDONED LONG AGO


Creaking noise and then its head falls off



[still speaking to SKELETON] You look so slender. Do you have a personal trainer?



He’s done four-hour interviews with each animatronic robot in Epcot’s HALL OF PRESIDENTS.

When Jehovah’s Witnesses come to his door invites them inside for tea.


Hey there! Here’s another original short story. This one’s a weird confluence of art, medicine, and madness. Originally published in BONED. Enjoy!  – n.




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The ceiling comprises sixty-four square tiles. Each tile has two-hundred and fifty-four dimples, except for the eight tiles that are occupied by light fixtures and that venting cowl that looks like a metal flower. Where the ceiling meets the walls, on the three sides I can see, there is a bead of wood, painted calming blue, that accents the room like a fancy cake. I don’t know if the walls are decorated–unable to move my head–but my memory of hospitals leads me to believe there would be a television on one wall flanked by inexpensive, mass-produced landscape paintings. Hopefully, if there are paintings, they are tasteful and well-composed, and none of that hideous Theodore Finley shit.

Finley had died a few years earlier, drugs and pills, after his wife filed for divorce. He was famous among his audience, a well-branded man, with calendars and classes and all the selling out an artist can accommodate. Was the real him reflected in his paintings? Did that mean that one of his paintings, perhaps on my hospital room wall right now, was a portal by which his essence viewed my own?

I tap the call button for a nurse. She said that this could happen as a side-effect of the medication. She called it Finleymania. She said the early signs were a sudden awareness and interest in the painter, followed by the belief that each individual image contained its own universe, and eventually escalating to a sense that contact with the man himself is happening. These manifestations were colloquially called “Teddysits,” a term that sounds almost cute until the nurse explains that the associated fugue state usually results in death.

But this is all normal.

It’s all part of the procedure.

I’ll be whole soon. I’ll be able to move again. Like the accident never happened. Like I was never pulverized against the rocks.

It’s all part of the procedure.

She’s coming down the hall now, and I can hear her footfalls on the linoleum floor. She’s carrying another dose of Osinum, in a thin needle that she’ll jab into my meaty belly and all these thoughts about the painter will slip away, buried deep beneath everything else I want to do when I finally get out of here.

There’s a knock knock at the door. A courtesy knock. The nurse knows I’m in here. Where else would I be? I’m not going to make a break for it. Nurse B________ nudges the door open. Light splashes across the ceiling from the hallway. Its hinges creak like a whisper. B________’s shoes squeak on the floor and she clomps back a step in a nervous stumble.

“Sorry, Mr. R________,” she says. “I hate that noise.”

I do my best approximation of nodding.

“You rang?” she says, in a comedically not-deep Lurch voice.

“Pntr!” I grumble.

She understands right away. She steps over me, and my nostrils fill with the delicate scent of vanilla. Why is it that the infirm are always closest to physical temptation? B________’s scrubs billow out over me, and the aura of her breasts is so intense that I think for a moment that I feel them resting on my doughy chest. She adjusts my pillow and folds down the blanket. Then out comes the needle.

“Remember what I said,” she says. “The instant you start thinking about those paintings you call me. No close calls.”

She holds the needle over me.

“Now, this’ll sting, but in a second you won’t think about any of it again.”

The needle slips in, and I think it might go right through me. It could, really. Nothing to stop it. I feel the liquid Osinum surge through me like electricity darting from neuron to neuron. And then in a quick flash I can’t even remember what painting I was thinking about.




B________ sets the needle aside on a cart outside my vision and touches the mass of my forehead. Her nails are nice. Clean, manicured. Her hands look soft, but strong. She’d probably give good hand.

“Okay, Mr. R________, that’s it,” she says, stepping away toward the door. “Everything looks good. Your vitals are sharp. You’re lucky to have walked away from an accident like that one. Sorry, I shouldn’t have said walked. It’s an expression, though, you understand. You are lucky though. The ocean doesn’t usually forgive people so easily. Of course, modern medicine makes a lot possible, and in time you’ll be right as rain. The Osinum will take about twenty minutes to cycle in, and you should start to feel some real results this time, since it’s dose number six.”

I want to mumble something about her making my recovery all the better, but I can’t find the words. Nurse B________ smiles, pats the side of my hospital bed, and disappears from sight, leaving only the creak of the door, and the latch as evidence of her complete departure.

Hours must pass because the dim tan curtains visible from the corner of my right eye are now just black darkness. I close my eyes and inhale deeply.

Some light peers in through my eyelids. It’s the reason I realize I’m no longer asleep. I blink my eyes open and right there on the ceiling is some distant island alcove, a hidden bay, with a ship approaching, all under the white, creamy glow of the moon. It’s one of those motel paintings… one of those images from a calendar.

Panic overcomes me as I stare transfixed into the light. It’s happening again, and it has never been like this. I begin to wonder how Finley brings the light to life. So nuanced, so energetic. And yet so still. I feel as though I’m falling up, toward the painting. This isn’t right.

I mash the call button and hear the chime. Now, I just have to wait for those footfalls, and that scent of vanilla. Meanwhile, there’s a figure on the ship in the painting that I shouldn’t be seeing, and it’s moving toward the bow, waving tiny arms that perfectly reflect the milky moonlight.

The figure dives off the front of the ship, splashes into the water and then emerges on the shore, in the foreground, arms up, still waving. At me. And then with superhuman speed, the figure strides up the beach, toward me, until it reaches the canvas surface of the painting.

“I’m Theodore Finley, and I’d like to talk to you today about secrets of my creativity,” the figure says.

It leans in close, and while it has no discernible characteristics like a nose, mouth, or eyes, the figure is wearing one of those over ear microphones that self-help gurus and convention speakers wear.

“The biggest secret is that there are no secrets,” the figure continues. “There’s only light. Once you start seeing the world for all its light, and nothing else, you really understand how to make art.”

I begin to appreciate the boring composition of Finley’s images, instead seeing the virtue of the light in them. His voice is soothing, and his high-octane self-assurance is infectious. I wonder if I’m a painter, too, and if not, why not. I keep mashing the call button. My heart races, nearly leaping around inside of me. Nurse B________ will arrive soon. She has to.

“The only thing is,” the figure says. “The only thing is that you have to give yourself over to the light. Once you let go, the light will paint itself for you.”

Then the figure extends its hand to me.

“Come with me,” it says.

Even if I could reach out to it, I wouldn’t, but then somehow my hand is fluttering up toward the figure’s. My heart’s racing gives way to pain and I can’t scream, so I gurgle something that sounds hideous to my ears, but quickly washes away beneath the figure’s persistence.

“Come with me,” it says again.

I can’t retract my hand, and it’s almost touching the figure’s hand, and I feel like my brain is liquefying, and…


Clap clap clap.

The blade of light cuts across my ceiling.

“Oh no!” Nurse B________ screams.

She runs up to the headboard of my bed and hits the emergency button. I hear a faint alarm sounding, but it’s cloaked in the figure’s soothing tones.

“Come with me.”

More footsteps, running now.

Clapclapclap clapclapclapclap.

“I don’t know what’s gone wrong,” Nurse B________ says. “I just administered the sixth dose three hours ago. He shouldn’t be convulsing like this. Is that the best way to describe it? Convulsing? It’s like a lava lamp. Undulating?”

“I think convulsing remains accurate, Nurse. Undulating lacks the requisite medical implication. The protocols changed last week,” someone says. “We sent a memo. For a man of Mr. R________’s height and weight, it’s now seven doses of Osinum.”

As if the figure weren’t there at all, the Doctor leans over me, smelling of aftershave and rye bread. She shines a penlight in my eyes, and looks me up and down.

“Mr. R________, if you can understand me please blink three times,” the Doctor says.

I blink three times.

“You’re in the throes of an episode of Finleymania brought on by your Osinum dose, but we’re here and we’re going to help you. If you understand blink twice.”

I blink twice.

“Good,” the Doctor says. “Now, whatever you do, do not take the hand of any figure you might be seeing. That could result in a very bad thing.”

Could? A very bad thing? I have no way to tell the Doctor that I can’t control my hand and that the figure nearly has hold of it.

I blink frantically.

The Doctor seems to understand.

“It’s happening,” she says. “Nurse B________, prep the crash cart. And bring me a seventh Osinum dose.”

Nurse B________’s footsteps are speedy but deliberate. I hear wheels rolling. I see a shadow flicker out over the ceiling as she leaves, and then flicker again as she returns. My outstretched hand begins to tingle. My head swims with light and white noise. The figure leans ever closer.

“Come with me.”

And then it takes my hand. Suddenly everything goes white, bright, but cool. The only thing I hear is something like the ocean that day when the boat turned, and the undertow, the rocks…


Then darkness. Noise. A jolt. Red light, pulsing across my eyes. I grunt, maybe aloud, maybe just inside my head. My heart speeds and slows. I breathe.

“That was closer than I’d’ve liked,” the Doctor says. “Nurse B________ please administer the Osinum.”

Vanilla. Breasts. The nurse over me. The needle.

“Mr. R________, this last dose of Osinum will do the trick. Your skeleton will regrow over the next twelve hours, and parts of that might be painful, but it’s only temporary. We’ll be monitoring you closely, and Nurse B________ will employ some sedatives to prevent any additional relapses of Finleymania.”

I try to say ‘thank you,’ but without a skull, jaw, or palate, it comes out as “Thrrrk.” I try again. There’s something around my tongue now. It must be starting already. I try again.

“Thnkoo,” I hear myself say.

If I could move, I’d clap triumphantly.

“Good, Mr. R_________,” the Doctor says. “You’ll be a chatterbox in no time. You know, just ten years ago, someone in your condition would have gone straight to the morgue.”

“Ysssss,” I utter.

“It’s really quite amazing,” the Doctor says. “Modern medicine.”

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That’s the opening paragraph of my book review of Agustin Aguilar’s Leonora Come Down. The review even includes portions of an interview I did with Aguilar last month. As It Ought To Be have published it in its entirety. I encourage you to check out the review, but also to read this book. It’s a remarkable work of fiction, poetic, intricate and beautiful.

Read the review in full:

Be well, my friends.

For this original short story in BONED, I played with the children’s story genre. I hope you like it. – n.




Photo by Jorge Jaramillo via Flickr. Creative Commons: Some rights reserved.


On Monday, the young boy exits the school bus in the afternoon. He bounds down the steps and crosses the suburban street for the alley that cuts between the rows of houses. The young boy passes the Jones, the Websters, the Underdunks, and the Hamiltons, and then something in the middle of the alleyway catches his eye. A burlap sack, tied shut with string, with a note safety pinned to the outside sits rumpled, an errant tumbleweed hooked to its woven exterior. The young boy runs up to the sack, takes the note in his little fingers and tries to read it.

“Fa– fa– fur– ee,” he says. “Free. Free!”

The young boy knows what free means, so he grabs the bag and claws it open. Inside he finds a skull, ribcage, two legs, two arms, hands, fingers, feet, and toes.

“A bag of bones,” he says excitedly.

The young boy closes the bag and drags it behind him through the alley, not stopping until he reaches the abandoned lot at the end of the alley. Once there, the young boy brings the bag of bones to the sandy ground beneath a mound of dirt surrounded by tires, and he starts to dig. He loses track of time, but when he has a dug hole, he places the bag of bones in the hole, and covers it over with dirt. Then he runs home, eager for supper, and not wanting his mom to worry.

On Tuesday, the young boy exits the school bus in the afternoon and runs from the bus, up the alley, and into the abandoned lot. He finds the hole he covered beneath the mound of dirt and lifts the bag of bones out from the ground. The young boy opens the bag and carefully removes each bone. He lays them out on the grass, not sure of their proper order, and creates something resembling a spider with a human head.

“Hello, crab man,” the young boy says.

“Hello, young boy,” the crab man replies.

The young boy and the crab man play tag for a couple of hours until the sun starts to set. Then the little boy puts the bones back in the bag and buries them once again beside the mound of dirt.

On Wednesday, the young boy sprints from the top step of the school bus, leading the driver to yell at him as he zips down the alley to the abandoned lot. The young boy digs up the burlap sack, and pours the bones out on the grass. He arranges them again, this time somewhat resembling a dog with a human head.

“You’re a good pooch,” the young boy says.

“And you’re a good owner,” the pooch replies.

The young boy and pooch play fetch until the sun is going down, and the boy has to pack up the bones, bury them, and run home for supper.

On Thursday, the young boy exits his school bus and soars through the alley toward his friend, buried by the mound of dirt. The young boy digs up the burlap sack, dumps the bones on the grass and lines them up. Today, the arms are low like legs, and the legs are up high by the shoulders, making big wings.

“Looking good, Mr. Bird,” the young boy says.

“Not as good as you,” Mr. Bird replies.

The young boy climbs on Mr. Bird’s back and they fly through the sky, above the clouds, and all around the town. The young boy can see the mailman walking his route, the tiny cars zipping from place to place, and even the roofs of the tallest buildings. They aren’t particularly interesting, except for the one with a swimming pool, and a bunch of ladies sunbathing.

As the sun starts to set, Mr. Bird flies back to the abandoned lot, and the young boy takes him apart, puts him back in the sack, and buries him. Then the young boy runs home.

On Friday, the young boy bolts from the bus, and runs through the alley. Today, Mr. Jones is watering his back lawn.

“Hello, Mr. Jones,” the young boy says.

“Hello,” Mr. Jones answers.

The young boy doesn’t stop. When he reaches the abandoned lot, the young boy digs up the bag of bones and dumps them on the grass. He arranges the bones in a long straight line, with the arms sticking out from the middle of the ribcage, and the rest of the bones making a long tail.

“You’re a mean old dragon,” the young boy says.

“Then you must slay me,” the dragon replies.

In an epic duel, the young boy spins and rolls and dives out of the way of the dragon’s fiery breath. Then, because he is a smart young boy, he climbs up onto the mound of dirt and uses his height advantage to get the drop on the dragon. The dragon doesn’t see him coming.

“You got me!” the dragon cries.

“I got you, dragon!” the boy echoes.

When the sun is close to setting, the boy gathers up the bones and puts them back in the sack and buries them again. Then he goes home for his supper.

One day, the boy simply stops visiting his bag of bones.

Another day, a construction company comes and builds a big house on the abandoned lot.

In time, the young boy grows into a man, and the man gets old, and then dies. And after he is gone his bones find a bag of their own.

Hello again! More new fiction for you. This is another entry in the BONED short story project. Enjoy! – Nate




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Grandma June stands on the back porch, picking at peeling white paint on the railing. Hearing the tired jingle of the kitchen timer, she opens the screen door to the kitchen. A pair of small animal skulls, bleached white, on the windowsill. Loose bones awaiting a stew. White tile countertops are lined with mason jars. Preserves and pickles. Snouts, eggs, feet, eyes, tripe, tongue, and gizzards. The children love the kitchen. It reminds them of a science museum.

She silences the timer, takes the cookies from the oven, and soaks up the scent of fresh ginger and molasses. Pleased, Grandma June calls out toward the porch:

“Mary! Henry! Come in, please.”

Like approaching sharks, the children’s headtops give away their positions as they sprint toward the house from the field. Tall grasses part and sway around them; their own terrestrial wake.

Henry, age five, hits the porch first, and wraps his arms around Grandma June. Mary, age seven, arrives next, enveloping Henry’s hug, and smashing him into Grandma June’s stockinged legs.

“Be gentle,” Grandma June says. “I’m an old lady.”

Mary loosens her grip. Henry frees his face and gazes up.

“How old are you?” Henry asks.

“You’re not supposed to ask a lady her age,” Mary scolds.

“That is true, dear,” Grandma June says. “But no one likes a know-it-all.”

Mary hangs her head.

“Hank, would you believe that I’m 178 years old?” Grandma June says, straight-faced.

The boy stares, his mouth agape.

“No,” Mary yells. “That’s too old to be alive!”

A smirk emerges on Grandma June’s lips. It quickly evolves into a smile.

“Well, aren’t you precocious?” Grandma June says. “Like your mother.”

She tousles Mary’s hair, weaving it with static.

“Now, you two dearies go sit with your grandpa in the living room, and I’ll bring out a treat.”

The children look at each other with glee and sprint to the front room where Grandpa Morris sits in his recliner watching the television and drinking chicory from a tin mug.

“Grandpa,” Henry says, standing between the man and his screen. “Is Grandma 178 years old?”

The old man harrumphs. “Where’d you hear that?”

“Grandma,” Mary inserts. “Just now in the kitchen.”

“You believe her?” Grandpa Morris asks.

“No,” Mary protests. “People can’t get that old.”

“You never really know what people can do,” he mutters.

Grandma June enters the living room carrying a silver tray embellished with triangle and eye symbols. The tray hosts a plate of cookies, and two small tumblers of milk.

“Morris, turn off that contraption, and join the us for some warm ginger cakes.”

Without argument, Grandpa Morris complies.

“When I was a girl, we didn’t have televisions, so we had to busy ourselves by telling stories, and that’s what we’re going to do now,” Grandma June says.

“I want dinosaurs,” Henry yells.

“Tell us a story about a princess,” Mary retorts.

“Well, I don’t know about dinosaurs, Henry. I’m sorry,” she says. “And I don’t have any stories about a princess, Mary. But I can tell you a love story.”

She hands the children a glass of milk and two ginger cakes each. Grandpa Morris, secured in his recliner, looks on like a hungry stray.

“June, may I please?” he asks.

“And enflame your diabetes? I think not.”

Grandma June sits down on the triangle-quilted settee. She takes a ginger cake and bites into it, locking eyes with Grandpa Morris as she chews the doughy bread, releasing its sharp sweetness.

Grandma June clears her throat. “Now, this is a story about two young lovers. And it’s a true story, you see, because it’s the story of how I met your Grandpa.”

Henry is lost in his ginger cake. Mary looks on, excited.

“Many years ago, there was a big war, and your Grandpa Morris was in the army,” Grandma June begins. “He and I hadn’t met yet. We lived on opposite sides of the country then.

“One day, Grandpa Morris and his unit were traveling through a marsh when they were ambushed by enemy soldiers. Those soldiers killed most of Grandpa’s friends, but not him. No, your grandfather fought hard and he killed sixteen men all by himself, including the enemy soldiers’ leader, a lieutenant who was fairly well known.”

The children stare at Grandma June; enraptured.

“Your grandfather didn’t feel good about all that killing, though, so as soon as the war ended he went to that lieutenant’s house to apologize to his widow. Grandpa wore his dress uniform, and brought a bouquet of magnolia, hoping to impress her with his consideration for her culture.

“What he didn’t know is that the widow knew exactly who he was even before he arrived.”

“How did she know?” Mary demands. “Was it magic?”

“Yes,” Grandma June replies. “It was magic. And when Grandpa Morris came to call on the lieutenant’s widow, she had a surprise for him brewing in a pot on the fire.”

“Like a potion?” Henry asks.

“It was a potion. That’s exactly right,” Grandma June replies.

“So Grandpa sits down in the parlor with the widow, holding a cup of that potion in his hands. Of course, he doesn’t know it’s a potion. He believes it to be chicory,” she continues. “And he starts in on apologizing and fretting about how the war turned brothers against each other, and that he hoped somehow that the widow would forgive him for taking her husband.

“Now, the widow raises her glass, and proposes a toast, ‘To eternal forgiveness,’ and both Grandpa and the widow drink. But before long, Grandpa Morris feels like something isn’t quite right with his chicory.

“Then he realizes he can’t move his legs. And that something is controlling him; puppeteering his body.

“He starts hollering about the widow being a witch. The widow just smiles, and says ‘This is the beginning of our long, long life together, dear. It’ll be easier if you don’t struggle.’”

“And we’ve been together ever since,” Grandma June says. “Haven’t we, Morris?”

Grandpa Morris nods vacantly from his recliner. Something unseen forces a smile across his lips.

Today, About Boulder ran a very kind profile/interview of me. It was great to talk to Rachel Busnardo about my work, process, and the value of literature. You can check out the article at the link below.

I’m infinitely thankful to About Boulder for contacting me. – Nate


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